lies and betrayal

i don't know what to do. i know i say this a lot, but normally there is something i can try to do.
this time there is nothing, i love som so so much, i never ever want to lose her. but all this lying and sneaking around is beginning to get to me. i don't want to become a good liar and i don't want to be able to sneak around, they are bad things to get into.
i am not saying that i will stop doing it, because we have no choice, we love each other too much to not see eachother. but i just wish it was easier. i want to be able to love her and be accepted by her family, but i never will be.
all my family loves her and my dad would kill for her. he said so himself. but i won't ever have that with her family because they will never know me. i am not saying that i want it so bad, but it would be nice to be able to go round there and just say hi and for them to see that me and their daughter are happy together.
all this sneaking is just lie after lie. :(