do i deserve this?

i keep getting bad luck it seems, so have i actually done anything wrong or to deserve this? or is it just bad luck?
i have done almost everything right! i have kept the house going, i have been strong and i have been all caring and good when all i realli want to do is curl up and cry and never go outside again.
i deserve something for me, surely! just something to go right!
hannah is always getting new things and she had her massive shopping trip, but i don't want loads of new things and i only want my money back because i hate having lost things! i don't want loads of 'stuff' i just want to be able to get up in the morning and be ok.
i am so sick of all this!