soo tired

i am so tired, i haven't slept in like 32 hours! i am kinda happy though.
i let two of my friends read my diary. not all of it, some of it is way too personal. i watched them read it and you could see the understanding in his face.
i don't know why but them reading it even though it's personal made me feel better.
the first thing he said was how upsetting and painful it was. the different entries all own their own hurt.
i wouldn't have normally let anyone read it but i had a moment where it thought what the hell?? it has helped me becasue now they know more about me as a person, i don't need to explain because they read it how i had felt at the time, what could be more accurate?